Hello Friends! I am going public today. I like to say that as if I were some sort of company being traded on the market. In a way I am. ... ... ... You know what...that's not true or funny and I don't really know why I said it. I take it back. I am not a company being traded on the market. I am just me. Nevermind.
Currently I am in the middle of the strangest illness I have ever had. I was severely ill this weekend. I shan't go in to it now, but it was disgusting and terrible and I will remember it forever. Ah the humiliation.
But now...many days later I am still suffering from an upset stomach. Or stranger than that, just a lack of hunger. Now I don' t know how well you people know me, but I love food. I love to go out to eat. I love to stay in to eat. I love love love to eat. I do. But lately the sound, the smell, the look of food makes me want to yack. What is with that? I am sure it is psychosomatic, but its strange. But it is???
I recalled my childhood. As a child I had strange fear of vomit. For instance, as a child I might get the flu or something which would then lead to vomitting. Then a week later to the day I would feel ill again. Why would that be? The bug that had entered my body had surely left by then, right? But sure enough come Thursday I would be in the nurses office complaing of a stomach ache. Do you know why? Because it was Thursday! See? The last time it was Thursday I threw up. See? Surely it was Thursday's fault that I was sick. OR I would wear my green pants on a day I had been ill. Then weeks or even months I would feel ill again. Why?? Because of those green pants. Those damn green pants. See I threw up in those pants. Surely it was the pants that make me throw up. *Note- I threw away those green pants eventually.
It was a strange phobia with many hilarious nuances, but I thought I was healed. I thought this was behind me. I thought my fear of vomit had diminished. But now I am wondering if in fact my lack of hunger...my disgust with food in general is not just an adult form of this phobia.
Damn.
Included in this email is a picture of a tree that I drew. It is not sideways for artistic purposes I just couldn't figure out how to flip the image.
1 comment:
I love your blogspot. my sister has a blogspot too. It's about knitting, but she's pretty entertaining: http://seelooknit.blogspot.com/
I have some shoes that i threw up in--i mean i was wearing them when it happened, not that they were the receptacle...at any rate, i didn't wear them for a while...i'm sorry that my story wasn't as good as yours.
Happy blogging!
-JOE
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